I entered Camino at the lowest point in my life, having spent years drinking myself into oblivion on a daily basis and supplementing this with substance abuse that would have put an elephant to sleep.
I didn’t want to live. I believed I didn’t have a friend in the world and that those closest to me would be better off without me, suicide was only avoided by my cowardliness. I had reached rock bottom and could see no positive end.
I didn’t want to go into rehab, no one in the world could understand me or my problems little less help me. Fear was a word I didn’t entertain, my background refused to recognise the concept.
I found myself standing on the 5th floor balcony of a hotel with 2 choices, jump or make a call and ask for help. I chose, after much deliberation, to make a call. Within 24 hours I found myself in the place that quite literally saved my life.
I have spent years being right, being the only person who knew anything, being afraid of nothing and prepared to go to the ends of the earth to prove to everyone I was the man. After a couple of weeks at Camino I realised I was a lost and scared little boy who needed help. I couldn’t have asked for more. The team at Camino showed me a love and acceptance I’d never experienced before. They showed me it’s ok to be afraid and it’s ok to admit your faults.
I was introduced to people who had been challenged in their lives and come out of those challenges believing in themselves and with a purpose in life I never felt possible. I felt like a person for the first time in my life. I felt normal.
I can’t put into words the effect the recovery process had for me, the changes it has made to my life, my family and my well-being. I now understand why I was who I was, I also understand that you can make a change for the better.
I was a dead man walking when I entered the centre; I floated out of the place alive and with a peace of mind I never imagined possible.
I will be forever and eternally grateful for the chance they gave me to change my life around.
No matter how low you are or how hopeless you feel there are people who understand and have in their own way experienced those lows. I couldn’t believe this was possible. I now thank god I found those people and allowed them to show me the way forward, because without them, I would never have made it through another month.